>>512107060
sorry for that. i managed to overcome the experience but in turn i stopped caring about women altogether. i crawled out of the pit i've been in and built myself a nice little comfortable life bubble, similar what >>512106312 describes. this attracts some random woman here and there, so i got some sex just to find out i don't really care about her and want to be alone anyways. so today i'm just deflecting any approach. i'm afraid i'm unable to see them as a genuine kind beings without ulterior motives. i guess the cynism that sprouted by years of very negative experience is already a part of my personality. don't take me wrong, i like women. but the ideal woman i have in my mind is far from the possible reality. and no, not talking about her being a super model or similar shallow requirements.