I am in a difficult position and would appreciate some advice. Here is a short back story. I found out a few years ago that I might have jewish blood. My parents and I are not close with the rest of our family. I found out a few years ago that the rest of my family are crypto jews. They do not practice the jewish religion and do not have jewish surnames, they also mostly don't look very jewish but their cruel personalities and burning hatred for anyone outside of their own small community (including us the family outcasts) makes me know it's true, I also looked up some ancestry stuff and it completely fits with where they have lived in Europe. Also some good schools etc and generally upper middle class communities but I always thought they were all standard sell out whites but the line between that an actual jews has always been thin, I assumed we were white christians because that is how I was raised and so I thought the people at my school and in my extended family were just run of the mill posh ambitious elitist white twats. Soulless ladder climbers but not nearly as rich or powerful as they thought they were. It turns out I was wrong.

With this background as a social outcast and thinking I was white I naturally gravitated to the other side and fought against the rest of them. Every time they would do their smug elitist anti white and anti christian globohomo bull shit I fought back against it, always outnumbered but never surrendering. Eventually I discovered 4chan and conspiracy theories and then inevitably the JQ. At first I like everyone had programmed to not go there mentally but the more research I did the result was the same Every Single Time. After a while I was about as far right as you can be. An angry white nationalist with a big chip on his shoulder.

So for me to discover that I might have Jewish blood myself is a cruel joke from the universe. Because it hasn't actually changed my mind on any of the important issues, it has just added an