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ahaha remember how when I first started visiting i would go by "multiplicity" yadda yadda back then
uhh yeah d.i.d. n all that
Uhhhhhhhhhhhh my therapist has been interacting with a buncha other me's for a while
and uhh sometimes she talks to some very scary ones, like today

"Why do you want to abuse him[, that little child maiz]?"
"I want to rob him of his smile."
"But why?"
"To have control over this nothing I feel."
"If not, what will happen?"
"I have to, because otherwise, I don't know what will happen."

I feel gross bahahah ahhhhh
My therapist insists he's doing everything to do away what little things make me happy, like my things, my friends, my hobbies
Obviously I hate to give this thought, because it only looks and it only feels like I'm sabotaging myself like I always do... so "another me doing
this to me" feels like an excuse and I'm afraid to accept it

I hate feeling like this
I have a lot of work to do with my therapist and I'm deathly afraid anon

I tried to gift her a clay bell that I got for myself because I loved how it looked and the way it sounded, she made me take it back, because
it's mine, and everytime it rings it's a reminder that there's life, and I am alive, and I cannot just get rid of it, because it's mine and nobody else's, so she said