>could have transitioned young
>didn’t
>now i live as a sexually frustrated gay guy with breasts

My face is overtly male. My brow juts out, my chin’s too big, my jaw is square, my philtrum is long, my nose is wide/curved, my midface is stretched, etc etc. Literally everything’s wrong. I’ll need a full ffs suite. Tens of thousands I don’t have. Maybe I can afford it in a decade. Maybe. But by then I’ll be well into my 30s, possibly even approaching 40. What’s the point of becoming pretty when youth is already dead? And if I can never manage to afford it? Then I’ll just look like a man, forever.
I will never be 20 and untouched by testosterone. I’ll never be young and pretty and carefree and happy. No soft jaw or dainty brow or effortless femininity.
But it’s my fault for being a lateshit I guess. I started HRT just before I turned 22 (been like half a year since). And I chose med school, so now I’ve trapped myself in training until I’m almost 30. No job or money. Just more waiting. I destroyed my own timeline.