>>40299361
Im sorry anon. I get how ypu feel. I gope you can cultivate yourself to be the woman you dream of being.
After a couple years ive at least been able to at least cultivate a sort of androgynous dignity to how i act. Even though im too tall i stand up straight. Even though my shlulders are too big i put them back. Even though I have male hips i always cross my legs. I wear makeup, but not too much to look like I'm wearing makeup. I wear female clothing, but nothing sexy. I can't tell if I'm half assing it or presenting the best way i can given the circumstances i started with. It just feels like transition made people see me as a woman but i never let myself stand out or truly be comfortable