>23yo khv
>still live with parents
>don't use dating apps
>don't use social media
>never showed any interest in women
>former NEET with a full time job
>former fatfuck until I lost weight this year
People think I'm weird for not pursuing women and my parents thought I was gay growing up, but I just don't like people or being around them. I don't even know if I'm just depressed or incredibly autistic but I just consider them a nuisance.
The only things I really want to do in my life is stay home, consume, and die. I've accepted the fact that I have no real reasons to act like a normal member of society. I don't derive pleasure from being around others. I don't want to continue my bloodline. I don't want to be outside for too long. I don't even have any ambitions of career goals. If I disappeared tomorrow it wouldn't matter to anyone and that's fine because I don't really want to be important to anyone. It's better just to not exist.
Until I find the courage to end myself, I'd just rather isolate. Pandemic five years ago was great for me, I was at university then and everything was done through Zoom calls so I never had to talk to people much.

Anyone else feel the same way? It probably doesn't matter but I'm tired of feeling like I'm here to eat, sleep and consoom or try and be a normie to appease massive gigantic faggots I don't like or want to be around. What's the point of even living if there's no reason to? I've come to terms with the fact that even if I was the biggest normalfaggot, I'd still be unhappy, and that's depressing.