>>212110071
I understand OP I grew up in a rather loving home and it almost feels like I have to put up this masculine front and be this strong guy all the time when I'm still just an innocent kid trying to dind love, validation, security, and support.
You're right that most attractive and pretty people have these things but if you were born ugly you're forced to be the bad guy all the time. I mean it's good if you are antisocial or psychopathic and you genuinely don't give a fuck, but if you're a kind person trapped in an ugly body it really takes a toll on you, and days where you embrace the antagonistic image you adapted is just tragic.