>>40567972
XX - The Aeon
XIII - Death
4 Disks - Power (Bonus draw for clarifying the "Below" at play: IX - The Hermit)

The transition out of the previous paradigm you walked must have been hard, and I am glad to see you seem to be (re)gaining something that will nourish you Anon. It seems how you are engaging with your journey is one of want, of hunger, not not undertake this task with such ambition. It sounds like you want someone who you will view akin to an archetypal view of what a "Nice Girl" is. Women are not a complicated other species but rather they are *real*. Real women will bare baggage of their past, and this only grows more true as we grow older and accrue more baggage. Adjust your capacity for unconditional love accordingly, follow your gut to who shares your core values, and even if they have a history of kissing people in photos online or a rich history with what came before, if they are truly of those same values you two will harmonize on simply the *now*. Spend some time alone, meditate, ask yourself who is important to you. Do all the things you'd do for her for *you* until you find her and then adjust to do the same for you *both*.

>>40568018
Starting immediately.

>>40567989
Coffee helps me meditate, the bindrune is simply a sigil serving as a stamp or signifier of myself and my (hopeful) authenticity. I am learning quilting to use this design and create a tapistry. Anyone who works with sigils may benefit from at least reading up but quiltmakers using magic do their work. (picrel)

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