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I have commitment issues in regards to dating (not in a cheating way, I'm just a pansy), and my most recent girlfriend was either 2022 or 2023 (she was too unimportant to care to remember), prior to that it would've been 2016, because I just haven't cared enough to date.
The main thing, too, is that I stick to the mindset of questioning what she might be able to offer me & what I might be able to offer her that we can't get by some other means.

I bring that up because, on a whim, I recently started dating a guy that I'm decently close with (online, admittedly), and I know the following is going to sound retarded to anybody with any level of social adjustment, but it doesn't feel out of the ordinary considering I've never been with a guy?
It feels confusing, yet feels normal (confusing in the sense that I've never been with a guy in my life (I've even turned down a dude because I wasn't interested in men) the most contact I've had with a guy is hugging a bro or a firm handshake after a good days work)
Maybe I don't see it as anything out of the ordinary because it's entirely text/digital and there's that online separation?

Someone please tell me I'm overthinking something basic and that I'm retarded.
Anyway, been going through Dragon Ball Daima, and it's kinda silly, but I'm enjoying it to an extent.