>aldrig haft en konversation om Franz Kafka, Spinoza, Emmanuel Levinas eller Zohar med en intellektuell judisk flicka

Imagine being a depressed fuck (ignoring God), getting drafted and dying.

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I already hadn't slept in a day and spent all last night role-playing sexual scenarios with her through AI someone please help me. I was like 15 a dumbass teenager and didn't want my first lay to be my dad's gf and now it's too late and even if I wanted to try she's like 60 now. I know you guys will just laugh or call me gay for not doing it but someone fucking help me. I've tried therapists and they either go awkward or brush it off entirely like I never mentioned it because I guess guys aren't allowed to be sexually harassed or whatever. I tried the suicide line one really bad night and all the useless bitch said was either I could check into some ZOG re-education camp facility or she wouldn't help me. I didn't want to go to some fucked up mentally ill prison place but I just wanted to keep talking and so I literally got hung up on by the suicide hotline.