I desire nothing more than to do moderately intense CNC (no sharp objects or other turbo-HC edgeplay) with a mentally well, subby long-term partner that actually knows how to safeword sooner rather than later. I want to see the mix of fear, arousal and underlying trust in their eyes and push them to just the right point. And after we are done and my sub is a quivering, sweaty and possibly bruised mess (no marks in visible places) I would gently wipe their face clean and cuddle and kiss their hair and neck for a minimum 20 minutes while reminding them repeatedly just how much I cared for them. In turn I absolutely need to hear them reassure me that they it liked it a lot and that they would have safeworded if it ever got to that point.

When they finally are grounded and calm I would help them wash and clean up and deal with all the other aftercare that they might need or ask for. Perhaps I would give them a small chair or something to sit on and help them stay upright while I gently wash them in the shower or draw them an obscenely good bath. Maybe wrap them in a nice warm blanket afterwards and prepare a tasty, healthy meal of their favourite foods to finish followed by spooning on my sofa and mayhaps ending the day with a round of super slow and romantic, cuddly sex if they were recovered enough and up for it. Like full service top mode where I would just go down on them and/or touch them for ages and keep praising and telling them just how horny they made me. And then they would just fall asleep nuzzled under my chin or something mega gay+cute like that.

Don't care in the least whether I was with a cute guy or a cute girl, cis or trans or whathaveyou, or in the latter case in what "stage" of transitioning they were in or where they were or weren't comfortable being touched even during a CNC scene I literally dgaf. What matters is that if I can ever experience this in my life even once then I will certainly die a happy and fulfilled moid.