>>40106184
sometimes i feel like its just like a bit or a joke and then i'll have a conversation w my therapist where she's reflecting things back to me and then i'll feel really bad bc i realize i sound kinda crazy and that i don't really have any good relationships bc when things get difficult i just stop talking to anyone. i had one of those kinds of sessions yesterday, but thankfully i get a break today bc its juneteenth. sometimes i feel really embarrassed about how i've left so many relationships when things start getting hard and now, despite how close i want to be to people, im completely and utterly alone.