>>714232371
>But I'm coping at this point
yeah i guess im doing that too. im generally a rather hopeful person at my core so i probably wont ever succumb to suicidality or anything like that, but shit really does fucking suck and it all just feels so dull and grey. might just be me reaching ripe old age but shit weirdly feels more chaotic and less cohesive with age rather than the inverse which is what older people always say. guess its because im not married with kids, but i dont think i want to nor should be doing that.
>wish there was some easier way of finding friends these days
yeah its rather elusive to me too. i have online friends that i have known for well over a decade that meet about once a year in some country, but thats not a consistent year round friendship like with a local friend. i am also a musician that plays instruments and works with music production though and would like to frequent music venues for like-minded people but the music scene in my city is abysmal fucking dogshit so i never feel like doing it.
>>714232808
i might take your advice and just fucking do it. i need to do something. hang in there, anon. im sure when we move out and feel that complete independence things might turn around and confidence arises.