I'm 30 years old and a virgin.

I was venting to my parents about how hard it is to find a girlfriend and they arranged for me to go on a date with one of their friends 33 year old daughter. I saw pics of her and she saw pics of me and we were both interested in meeting eachother.

She also has never been on a date before and our parents decided that we should go out.

Anyways about an hour before I was supposed to go I got very nervous and didn't end up going.

Now I am pretty sure she isn't going to give me another chance because she probably thinks that I didn't like her pics but I did actually find her cute. Like she looked nice like she didn't have a bitchy looking face so I would've felt comfortable around her for sure and she probably wouldn't be too judgemental hopefully

It's not even entirely my fault that I got nervous either my parents gave me a bottle of wine to bring to her house and it made me feel pressured like I was just going there to have sex or something and I literally have no idea how to have sex and I would be terrible at it probably and then she would tell all of her friends about how bad I was and my penis size and stuff

I asked for my dad to set up another date and he told me that I embarrassed him and he called me a "fucking faggot". I talked to him again today about it and he started screaming and said that he had 3 kids when he was my age and that he has a faggot for a son.

I don't know what to do anymore