Genuine Terry vibes from this guy, took me a while but I'm warming up to him. I believe you, and have been in the same "what do I do now" phase of harassment. What are you going to do long term? Are you like me, and in such pain/disarray that long term plans arent there? They made me suicidal. So I didn't have any, I hope you can get off drugs. Even low grade stuff like pot or alcohol (which isn't low grade at all we just culturally allow abuse of it) might be too much for minds like ours. Though we numb ourselves because we are powerless, or feel that way, we aren't. You could start reading, and walking, that is good too Anon.