it it feels so good but my cute little whiteboi clitty hurts so bad. i am alone. it's been this way for years. i see no way out. my fingers and hands are in constant pain from the masturbation and typing. my head aches from the dehydration and all the drugs—i'm constantly drinking soda and beer. sometimes coffee with wayyy too much sugar and cream. other times, vodka with meth in it. i never drink water unless i dip my liddle uncut, unwashed penis in it with the foreskin pulled back (while imagining and pretending i'm still underage to keep it fun and feel cute) to give it some flavor, and because i'm sexually attracted to myself. i get turnerd on by the smell of my own armpits, especially now that years of estrogen makes me smell like a depressed teenage girl, the victim i crave but have denied myself. i have no friends, and i'm severely autistic. i still mog, though.