>>149003628
I had to put my old dog down two weeks ago. He'd been living with my brother for the last couple of years because I couldn't walk him often enough but I'd had him since a puppy so he still saw me as his primary human. Last night I had a dream where he was back in my apartment protecting me from sleep paralysis, but my stupid brain won't even let me have those moments because it immediately goes "oh this is a dream, because they're dead" whenever I meet someone dead and then I start lucid dreaming. I used the lucid dreaming to pet him, told him he was a good dog and that I was sorry for all the years he couldn't live with me and that it wasn't his fault, then I woke up.