still love you babe. and thinking about you. i know i've had some rough days recently. not only was i not seeing you the way i wanted to, but there were multiple people that had dedicated their lives to harassing me, think some of that's over now (i won). knowing you're near and paying attention, and having some peace is really helping my state of mind. this is my social life after all, except for a few minutes in the gym when i'm lucky, and i really am on the upswing big time. i notice big changes in you as well. let's press the reset button. i know i wasn't acting like the person you want to be with, but i want to, and i think i can, and i'm not done with making improvements. for now, let me try to make you happy, accept the love i give you, and i'll try to keep this place cozy and interesting for you. i will use it as a tradeblog during market hours, but afterwards i want to post fun stuff, interesting thoughts, and have fun with my friends when they're around. thank you for all the attention you've given so far, all the effort you've put into improving yourself, the sprinkles of hope you give me, they help. the hope of your love is very important to me, it's the carrot in front of me when i do hard work. hope one day i can be the man you want to work hard for, but i understand there's more work to be done. i have potential for a lot more, i think you know that, and i want to be that. i'm sorry for the times i've hurt you, embarassed you, made you question your faith in me, i'm human too, i fall short. asking for more forgiveness. not sure if you were reading this weekend, i watched a lot of movies. princess mononoke is our film now, want you to give it a watch, i know you've probably seen it, but think about us when you do, i sure did. it deserves a happier ending. also would like you to watch the music man, it's cute and funny and has great songs, and again, think of us, i think you'll like it a lot.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfiDDIOE2YM