The same plight that Abraham had. The lack of maliance in my actions the preservation of the body, the necessity to be economically viable this was all a means of me to maintain my innocence. As though i had preformed this act with malintent ! I went to church I learned and understood I tried to participate in society. I DIDNT KILL HER ! The failure of the medical system killed her. I DIDNT KILL HER! The economy killed her. I DIDNT KILL HER! The American weapons manufacturing companies killed her, I was always the victim. Viewed as a staticic for the longest I've adheared to the rules. I have been a memeber of my local organization of youth and rehabilitation programs since I could even remember. Participating in after school activities doing my best to make money and navigate through the broken economy they put me through. How could I be blamed for a doctor not being able to work on a body?! How can you blame me ?! That mailman! The mailman ! Was a mother fucking imposter ! If he was a real federal agent he would've had a badge ! Alll people we can trust have a badge and a federal identifier. If I could trust that mailman like I do my government then why didn't he just give me the mail the same way the government give me bills and sales taxes ?! I didn't do nothing ! You gotta believe me.

Got caught vaping in the bathroom at this new job, set the fire alarm off. One of the lowest moments of my life. I hope they fire me.