I'm not doing to well right now boys. Some obstacles we can push past, others we will always carry with us. I'm procrastinating some important things I need to do. I desperately don't want to. I desperately want to quit my job. But I know that if I do that, if I push everything off and take a year for myself, I'll be even worse off than when I started. Sheer obligation is what gets me out of bed. A fear of failure keeps me motivated. But right now, sitting at my desk watching the rain... it all falls flat. I want to have an ice cream and lay down. Again. What is life a but many small moments? To enjoy the moment must I forsake the bigger picture? Can I just fail be over with it already. Why does everything have to be so hard.