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>cherish the time you have with your parents
makes me even more sad to think about. im a complete loser and my parents are pretty much all ive had in my life, still living with them in my 30s, etc. but the sad thing is, we arent close at all. we barely interact with each other and havent really even done any activities together since i was a teenager. pretty much just been lifelong roommates. and im the only child, so my poor parents had their only child turn out to be me

i recently saw this version of the "are you winning son" meme and i keep crying over and over every time i think about it, thinking about how ive wasted my entire life and their lives, and how this is likely happening within the next few months/years, where they will walk in on me having committed suicide, and thniking of them having to be in their retirement saying "i miss you son", even though i know theywont, because i was nothing to miss. i was nothing but an embarrassment and an asshole to them, and theyll have to die alone. im even tearing up right now.