>>40652102
maybe that's why i wanna [redacted] people so much. nature called, and the void answered. its a good thing i give a shit about ethics

https://youtu.be/oN-8J1QA7f8

>>40578144
no doubt. i hope you're hanging in there well enough fren

https://youtu.be/P0kUMfg-dHE

>>40578146
yes it is! though i do have a sleep disorder, i just don't sleep on a regular schedule, but i still get plenty of sleep. that said, i know what it feels like to go without sleep for days at a time, but thankfully that is a rarity for me these days

>>40570278
>Do you think you can practice the breathing parts of meditation?
i don't think i need that, i can stay calm, its about impulse control. thankfully i am very practiced with restraint and self-enforced patience, prior to my psychosis i used to have extreme anxiety and i used to have to keep my shit together in that way. now its kinda the opposite, but similar

>You want to be scary?
maybe when i'm loosh hungry, but otherwise no, i desire the hollowing as a means to be one with synchronicity and the void, and to generally gain chill. my spiritual journey has been an exploration of this mental state, since the initial psychosis. i want all of the chill, but less of the thrill i suppose. i like to consider it the dark path to infinite chill

https://youtu.be/h7aqTZaydEo

>Ethics is a great thing to study. Though there are some flaws.
i should be clear, i'm not studying it in the purely academic sense, i'm kinda just learning on the fly i suppose (pun intended i guess?)

https://youtu.be/Do6iiSa4hmc