I'm a 25 year old twinkish guy in a long term relationship with a girl but recently I've been meeting up with older guys and letting them do what they want with me.

At first it was just about experimenting, but then I met this guy who's old enough to be my Dad. He's fully into being a dom top: porn-dialogue, slapping my ass and my face, choking me, pounding me hard even when I tell him it hurts. Honestly I've never experienced anything like it and I'm now totally obsessed.

When we finish and we're in the shower together, or lying in bed making out I feel like I'm falling in love. This was never supposed to be anything other than scratching a weird new itch...

What should I do? Do I just abandon my old life and embrace that this is who I am or do I keep my sexual life and my real life seperate?