>>81704265
i feel the same way. playing videogames feels like a literal chore, going outside is repetitive and uneventful, every hobby ive ever had feels mundane or stress inducing due to my inability to do it well, even posting on 4chan feels like something i have to force myself to do. i just spend all day watching youtube videos and switching between different boards and refreshing the catalog to see if theres anything new thats worth replying to. i used to be so angry at myself for doing nothing all day and procrastinating making any meaningful changes in my life while doing nothing to enact them but now i just dont care. in an ideal world i would be a well read, multi-lingual, bass guitar playing gymmaxxed aryan beast but i know due to my laziness and retardation none of it will ever happen.
>inb4 get a job bro
i would rather blow my brains out