>>1014127
I’ve gotta reply to you in a separate post again because I wrote you another essay.
>my creativity has been completely suppressed as a child
That reminds me of something I think could be useful to you. I stumbled upon a philosophical YouTube video (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9A7GTGSfrIU) a while back about the archetypes of the puer aeternus (boy eternal) - a boy who was never forced to grow up and has a bright imagination because of it, but typically lacks the ability to actualize his imagination because he refuses to engage with the real world, and the senex (old man) - a man who was forced to grow up too early, and hence had his imagination and spirituality crushed by his sense of practicality and duty. I suffer from the first archetype and have been trying to build myself over the past few years, and I think you may suffer from the second and could benefit from watching that video. These philosophical ideas do play a part in what I create. I’ve always found great joy in creative play, and I hate how sterile and practical the world is today. Everyone is overconcerned about being “right”, or doing things “the right way” that it squeezes the fun out of things. The world was more interesting when people believed in fairies and dragons and stuff like that, and that’s why I love shows like Ancient Aliens even though most of what they say in that show is dumb bullshit.

Pic related is something I had to make for a project back in high school. I don’t know what he is, but he’s ready for battle.