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not sure if she's just sleepy or simply not doing the pipi voice as high as usual but this is comfy to listen to

hi pipi, i know you'll read this and since you were being honest and brave about sharing how you feel about the big stuff, have some blunt honesty back
some of it might seem mean and offensive to your sensibilities but you were lied to and your autistic ass has to navigate being weird while not offending the "proud" "weirdos" in this holy month of June
i dont owe them anything, i can just call it how it is

>wanna learn how to draw and rig and make cool vtuber models for other people
>i could do it as freelancing but it feels better to do it for free for my friends
WHY ARE THEY ALL LIKE THIS
get paid you cunt

>pipi explains all the ways she is confused about relationships
somehow a lot of autistic girls with first gen immigrant parents are like that
sounds like alienation from never being loved right and being too rational to me

>i crave attention but only from chat
>maybe im just a content creator
the minute she finds the right person all this shit is out of the window

>not saying that polycules are gross but
that is the correct opinion we dont need the but

>favorite part of relationships is talking about it, i keep tabs on 6 different people's love life, 2 being mods who hooked up from sharing a chat
>1 of my friend is in a mutually exclusive relationship with someone what does that even mean girl?? if you are listening to this, you gotta tell me
she's looking at it like it's a thing to study, autistically
rather that something to partake in, which is the whole point of relationships

>i think i was meant to be a spectator (not with that voice girl, we call that a gift)
>i feel i would be happier working in the background being the thumbnail artist, the manager, the advice guy
pipi is a disgusting numberfag after all so she might be right about being happier doing that but it would still be a waste

>looking to the side playing 2048 off screen
>pipi will not do your taxes since Father Dearest does her taxes
>would need to be more qualified to be a manager even here at perfruor every manager has experience being a vtuber at least
YOU ARE LITERALLY A VTUBER RIGHT NOW YOU CLOWN OF A GOAT

>unfortunately i hate myself
>and im just a vtuber it's not like im trying to solve cancer
and there you have it, this is the real issue in the aro ace relationship BS or the i dont have skills or will to be a talent or a manager

at least you seem aware pipi, hope the break helps you figure out that it's not that deep: everyone else is incompetent and or faking it, you'll be fine
get better girl, you're a good kid

>saving the rest for the assmr venting stream haha
>even tho that's not going to work and it might make me feel even more like shit
>i think im just tired, and i regret a lot of things
>i live my life in a constant cycle of regret and ii dont think that's good
again, very aware, not even retarded just too busy thinking instead of doing

>feel like im riding on the coat tail of my senpais community
not to be rude but i know literally no one else from that company, that's just wrong

>i dont feel like i deserve it, someone should have gotten it not me
that might be chemical, it's wrong btw

>dont wanna talk about this gonna get dry and gonna cry do you wanna see me cry? waht if i cry guys and its all your fault?
sometime it helps to get it all out and move one

>lets talk about something else, what are you guys looking for?
>i wanna be happy i wanna share happy moments
>i dont wanna be sad because being sad is sad

>would like income stability, even an office job
vtubing should be a hobby first no small corpo is gonna offer a stable job, sorry
even the big ones are struggling

>been into learning L2D rigging
are you gonna get paid for it tho

>dont want kids, they are a money sinkhole
you need to take care of a living thing, start with a plant then a cat, caring about something else someone else, keeping something alive, is how most people get out of this, some start with kids and usually fuck it up, start smaller
you dont even have to love yourself, you can just do it for her (her being the cat, the oshi whoever the fuck) and you will naturally better yourself because you have something to care for

>a lot of my friends are older and i feel i need to catch up with them and get my shit together
>is that stupid?
yes, get your shit together, dont do it to catch up dont do it because numbers

>nothing SSRIs cant fix
it helps some people and royally fucks over others, it will change your personality and you wont be the same as an entertainer and that's more fuel for the brain worms
try the shit that works all the time first: love