i try sleep more don't miss me too much bye

streetlights glow warm, reflections become distant
it's quiet as snow falls in portraits of your heart

good night xivg and ty to the gamers who ran dungeons!!!!

so i laid back down, wrapped myself up in the sheet, and i must have looked like a ghost 'cause something frightened me

and since then i've been so good at vanishing

>>527283979
i don't need anyone to save me, i saved me. all the crying and pleading and begging any god above to listen amounted to nothing, all the silly hope that maybe i'd magically meet somebody warm and beautiful (as if i was even able to meet anybody at the time at all) to get me out of it was wasted energy, ya know? deep scars to remind you that you're all you've got!

but it's honestly fine, i know i'm warm, i know i'm vibrant. my problems have never mattered and never will. i can be of use, and i'll be just as strong for somebody else as i needed to be for me. i'll share all of the warmth i have to give, with somebody who truly deserves it.

>>527182578
listen here pal any day now i'm liable to clock the fuck out
i really do not want to but my mental state may be at least generally speaking the worst it's ever been
now do you want to do a dungeon or not

when you've given so much, so little remains
like a wound that will never heal, all that's left is to wait.

i think i've done it, i think there's nothing left of me, i actually just... can't. i don't have it in me at all. i wish i could just stop feeling, it's unbelievably difficult though. i have to stop crossing certain wires, stop engaging entirely in certain things. at least then i can avoid this.

i get why people play games now, i understand the point. why be the straightforward one? it's so exhausting to navigate to the point where you can truly understand, truly know somebody's intent, connect, feel anything from them whatsoever, when you're the only one who is just. open. honest. straightforward. why bother? i don't have the energy for it, i've winded down to nothing.

good night xivg

don't you
want to be close to a heart that is warmer than yours?