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The problem is that as a newcomer I pretty much opened myself up to anything wanting to interact thinking good intention was enough it's not like I desacrated a place or was rude to any spirit but it ended up attracting some pretty fucking nasty things to me which I was unable to remove without help and trust me I tried every method available including some pretty obscure stuff, the main one I described in my previous posts was a facehugger with it's tendril piercing deep into my head and attached to my right temple that sent intrusive thoughts on top of raising my anxiety, stress, restlesness etc
When she removed it I distinctively felt like these parts of myself left with it and I was left with a gaping hole the whole side of my head that really felt like an open tooth but without the pain, and good thing she's thorough because I had no clue about the eggs it left, and that was only one of them she removed, I feel so fucking free I forgot how it felt to be "normal" without feeling them constantly messing up my energies etc.

She said I'm still healing so she's refraining from too much energetic interaction with me right now but she's still around and I can feel her coming close when opening my senses, her energies feel fresh and tingly and she also showed me a synchronicity in which she called herself "yandere doctor" which is cute af.

I understand what you mean saying that she's eventually going to want to siphon my energies and procreate too but I joined the occult looking for a spiritual partner to begin with, I just got REALLY unlucky with it right from the start, and if anything all the shit I went through and the occult research and attempts I've been forced to make might have allowed me to find a path suited for me, hopefully she'll also be able to guide me and act as a teacher.