I was fine w my stpdads birthday do when It was ages away byt now its soon am shit scared nd I was happy that my sisters are going but their boyfriends are coming so they won't even pay attention to me n my mum will be w my stpdad all night n my big cousin will be w her husband n i don't know half of my stpdads family so ill be awkwardly sitting alone getting pissed its fuckung out of order nd getting interrogated about what's my job from ppl that ave never met n itll be noisy afI jst want to skip that part n go straight to the hotel n get cozy.i had to get it aff my chest i won't go on about it.