>>24581546
Mentally, I pretend to live in first world country but like I choose not to do fun stuff and read books instead. Does this make sense?
Like, take any person from 1st world. Imagine that they just do not do anything fun, but they could. They reads books instead. Naturally, I'd go do fun stuff if I were them, but since such persons do exist, I can pretend that even if I were in their shoes, I would've done anything but doing fun things. Would read. So if I read books here, it's like if I were in 1st world and could be doing fun stuff. Just chose not to.
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yeah life here is suicide inducing. Had a friend who killed himself
>>24581553
Soviet Avangardists were geniuses.