I've had no father, slept with my mother until I was 14 - now can't talk to a woman...
I'm 180cm looks not bad, according to other guys, can't properly function in society and now I signed up to military having the knowledge it serves evil and protecting own country is only a status-quo. Worst of all I'm Polish. I've wasted 4 years of my adulthood and I want to work hard but don't know how to find a job with meaning...
I've always acted as mentally strong but I'm a trainwreck. I can't do this anymore. It's not over but I see no light in the tunell, I can only see the sign: danger ahead.