>>212172830
I can relate to this
She didn't block me but she just stops replying mid convo and answers again in like 5-6 weeks. I'm tired because she was the only girl I fell in love with and being ignored by her while she's obviously active on social media really hurts unlike being ignored by other women. I can't even be really mad at her, just at myself for catching these feelings.
I caught them not because of her looks but for some other reasons among which is that she seemed very polite and nice when we met (lol) and back then she showed some signs that she was into me. Probably the main reason I was initially fascinated by her is because she is from the same place as my grandpa, and when I told him he kept asking me later about her along when I was going to get a gf. 2 weeks ago on his deathbed he was sick and started telling me that I should compliment a girls hair and dress and so on.
After this I can't even be bothered trying with other girls. The emotions I feel towards this one bitch even after being hurt are too much.
I'm autistic enough to self diagnose myself so I don't see a point in giving 70 euros per hour to talk to someone. Genuinely considering drugs or something just to ease the pain.