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She just had a lot of pressure on herself because her family saw her as a chance to gain recognition, and has normal teen girl rebellious "No, I need you to appreciate me in OTHER ways!!!".
The "is that really her own will" part is referring to the fox spirit(Arahime) she communes with, who is manipulating her in order to get her chosen as the yorimashi so that she(the fox spirit) can steal Ohime's powers.