>>937127091
Well, what disgusts me is that recently (hypothetically speaking), I met a girl who was pretty damn young. Too young (hypothetically). And we actually got along pretty well and talked for hours over Discord, and then eventually over a couple phone calls. It grossed me out how well we got along, and as attracted as I was to her (we shared some legal pictures), I just felt so disgusted.

Like, this isn't me. This is me just horny and touch-deprived. And the goal wasn't to manipulate someone, but that's what I felt like I was doing. Doesn't matter how "mature" I thought she acted, the truth is she wasn't mature at all. I was probably just acting closer to her age to feel like the interaction was normal. Realistically, the age gap is massive, and I can't do that. It felt too wrong. Even if she begged for it, I just didn't feel right at all.

Better left a fantasy. It felt too disgusting to go through with. I haven't had sex in four months, it's most likely that. I just found someone who wanted it, but the age gap is way off, and I don't think I could live with myself afterwards. Idk how people actually go through with it. I get a pit in my stomach, and I fantasized about this stuff for years. Finally presented the chance, and I just can't. Same city, too. I just....

...yeah, I'll just stick with loli.