>>40422159
oh i didn't know. am i really that pale? also i can't live the way i do now, it isn't sustainable and i don't know what to do. ever since it clicked that i am not pretty i've been unable to cope and i'm not handling it well. it's distracting me and i love video games but i can't focus and i keep losing or getting lost in the same thought loop. i probably make people feel weird and a lil confused when they take a look at me. i'm also autistic so that probably adds to the uncanny valley effect i am probably giving off