I do jerk off, so not entirely, but I love watching porn for the spectacle of it all.

Someone exposed me to porn at an age where I couldn't really do anything about it... so all I could do was watch.

That said, I was completely fascinated by it all. I loved talking about it in detail. Flipping through magazine pages, watching VHS tapes and surfing the web for porn. It was so much fun laughing at the silly plot points, pointing out what we liked, rating and ranking pornstars, discovering new fetishes.... I was addicted to our "sessions" as much as I was the actual porn.

As I grew older, I started masturbating to porn but still in that headspace of analyzing it. I just wish I could enjoy it with someone like I used to.