Hey schizos, I'm Loren. I frequented this board a few years ago but I found it made me paranoid. But I have some life experiences that may resonate with some of you.

The first experience came in a stressful period of highschool, not long ago (graduated now hellyeah). I would sleep, feeling someone breathing above my face. I would feel the presence of a woman standing behind me in my bedroom when I was playing games or alone. In my sleep, I would feel myself fall into a pit of blackness, surrounded by an energy of sadism from creatures (that I feel comes of some real life figures, such as King Charles) until I professed belief in the name of Jesus Christ. People would act hatefully to me. My sister, who sometimes knew when somebody was about to die or have a serious life event, dreamt that I birthed a demon. I woke up upside down in bed in bodily pain one morning, feeling drained and violated.

After? I became religious, set my consciousness on love and presence. It's almost the opposite. Strangers come up to talk kindly to me, or confide in me. Animals like me.When somebody meets me, and is around me a lot- they get the job they never thought they'd get, the relationship, win things in raffles, it's happened so many times it's unreal- I have this mental rule of never holding grudges and seeing the soul in people, and holding that with love. For me? I would be given a lot of love and gifts and opportunities easily. When I thought of people, they would simply text me. But actually, I'm just a person, sometimes bitter, scared, exciteable, and lazy.

I know I sound insane. But am I cursed? Blessed? In tune?

I want to know this, because I know that the world is a dark place- we are ruled by liars. If I have an ability, or fit into this world differently- I wish to know, so I can make a tiny ripple in this world, that leads to this world becoming more truthful, and more loving. And if any of you relate to this experience, please share, and give your interpretation!