i dont want prostate cancer and i just stopped porn for a while. I dont want to jerk off without porn, theres too much pain and not enough intoxication to go with it. i literally dont want to go back to porn and dont want to touch myself it just hurts and im genuinely scared of it. i always thought of reconditioning myself to get hard towards inanimate objects, things like rocks, steel, trains, water, etc. are there any long term disadvantages to that? i dont want to touch myself. how do i cope?