>>81952439
embodiment of "learn to dance in the storm not waiting for the rain to pass"
agent of chaosmaxxed beyond belief

>>81952868
completely soulless world in all actuality

>>81953580
putting yourself at risk

>>81953608
>So your life philosophy is being a spineless coward?
the problem is most npcs think that doing a certain thing or being for certain things has any value or will actually do something, in reality it's fucking meaningless and does not move the needle at all, literal retardation
problem is I'm at least cognizant and average iq to understand that, which makes me able to see through most things several steps ahead
problem is even IF I wanted to influence things first step of all is getting rich and powerful before you even have any influence, even then it will be hard
then you pretty much have to ask yourself if you really wanna endure the constant mental pain and stress dealing with not only your opposition non stop fucking with you and also you have hoards of retarded npcs attacking you non stop, it's just a non stop assault by retards and mental stress and pain, for what purpose? what is your goal? is it worth all this? I could see some goals being worth it, but you must be willing to suffer immense mental pain and die as a result of your cause, will it matter long term? your perceived end goal that you imagined in your mind might not even come to fruition, be real
what I'm saying is you are fighting against the literal human nature/inclination and whatever other powers, for what purpose? this society?
it's all made up retardation and stupid shit thinking any of this is even important
idk if this makes sense, something like that

>>81953665
>I've been fucked over so many times by people
there is kind of this, but also nihilism and general not caring about shit at large
but yeah there is no fall back either, but also just paranoid anxiety

>>81953895
I'd say it's more anxiety based than anything
but most people can not even get there