guess we're still gaining altitude at this point

you need to break out of the cycle completely, but second best is keeping on an even keel; the more you puff yourself up, the harder you're going to come crashing down when the delusions unravel (and they always do unravel)
come back down to harsh reality: it was only ever a transactional, parasocial interaction, wherein you paid money to words on a screen for a facsimile of actual human interaction—it was never love; it was never anything close to actual love
I'm sorry

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_os8HqfxHc