For the past 4 days I’ve done nothing but get high on dextromethorphan and pet my cat. I taped blackout blinds down to the wall over my windows so it’s dark so I wake up whenever and take a shower and think about how I feel ok considering. I piddle around for an hour or two and drink some iced coffee and eat some saltines just to have something in my stomach and then I take the dex and that’s basically my day. I read or look at the internet in my computer chair until I start to feel like I’m going to puke and then I drag my puke box over to my bed and lie down. I always intend to listen to music or watch a movie or just puke and get back up but instead I end up petting my cat. It’s very nice, he goes to sleep and nestles against me and I end up just lying there petting him all night in the dark with no music no entertainment high as hell. He’s probably been enjoying it he loves attention lol.
Anyway it’s been four days of just that. Things are getting spooky, a little jumbled up in my head. Last time I did a lot of dex I eventually had a horrible night where I felt burned in and it was the most mindbreakingly miserable experience of my life I seriously just laid there in the dark and sobbed for hours. I really feel like I want to puke. I feel like the bliss state from the puke would really help me out. Just feel like I have to tell someone, haven’t spoken to anyone in four days, only one or two more days worth of dex and then I’ll take the tape off the windows.