It just. It hit me right now. This is it. This is life. I'm in my mid 20s. I have accomplished absolutely fucking nothing so far. I have no realistic goals to work towards. I got no backing from nobody. My eyes no longer shine. I'm a literal breathing-walking disappointment. I have no friends. Or any social life to speak of. My own kin do not consider me as a part of their culture. I'm so jaded I just wish to vanish without any trace. I actually do not even want anybody to remember me after I'm gone. This is it. These are supposed to be my prime years. There are things I can only do while I'm young, for the withering body in old age won't support me. This prime time of mine will be over in a blink. And I would be all alone and defeated by the end of it. If I don't eventually end up killing myself? A shitty minimum wage dead end job and a petty paycheck for welfare. That's it. That's all I will ever amount to. I won't have a family. No children. I won't ever be happy. I will have to wake up everyday only to question my reason to be. This is excruciating.