and pretending to be a man on the internet... i guess i get it, wanting to blend in and fit in with the boys, avoid more situations like this, but it's not natural. you are a woman, you attract men, you are different and this response is natural, it's what we're meant to do. why does it scare you so? romance is the best part of life babe. if i could get it easily i wouldn't be here, i'd be enjoying it, and in the past that is what i did, until i hit 24 with no career, then it started dawning on me i'd made some mistakes, thought being handsome was all it took. not as handsome as i used to be either, but i still turn heads, and if i styled my hair and cut my beard i would be very conventionally attractive. i'd do that for you if you asked, i hope you don't though, i have spiritual reasons for them and i'm superstitious about cutting them off. this is how god made me and i'm not eager to 2nd guess him. yes, that means you could stop shaving if you wanted to as well, i hope you're not too hairy though. anyways just rambling. i'm frustrated right now and i want your love, disappointed like you would not believe. the integrity of your other thread is not more important than our love, and i'll keep doing what i did, but no more today, i know a strikeout when i see one. but i love you too much to let you rot there.