Ugh, it's just like this, I'm trapped under all this weight, I even in my desperation turned to asking God for help, but I don't think my prayers have ever been answered. It's just so hard to push through all this shit, all these chemicals whatever witchcraft and sorcery they have performed.

I have been stuck, it's hard to force my way through, I feel on the edge of breaking down when I try. I just don't know what to do