Why is it that none of my friends ever ask me to go anywhere and whenever we do something it is me who has to organize everything? Anyway i still see them on social media doing stuff without me and without them ever asking me to go anywhere

i only have 2 friends, they are both like this and honestly i havent seen them in 6 months now, there is no contact if i dont initiate it but i still consider the friends since i got nobody else. whenever we hang out it seems so unnatural like they are doing me a favor just by letting me in their company or something

How do i fix things? if i let them go ill be completely alone.