>>511041931
It really makes you feel dysfunctional, like a misfit, like you were never really a part of the society. Everyone does it effortlessly like it's natural to them, but for you years and years go by as hope transforms into apathy as a coping mechanism.
By the time you learn to live with it, you're left either full of destructive bitterness, or detach yourself from the society because caring is pain.