Im High and I dont give a fuck about anything and I want to die, I can get through just about anything in this life so far, I'm not deserving of the shit I get but I dont care, its just the way the world happens to be and Ive become so emotionally resiliant I am back to feeling the absolute loneliness of despair after making decisions to be a part of connecting with a collective yet still as an individual, and I just dont know and you know what, its not a bad place to be. What hurts is just gonna hurt. I feel that way even when Im not high btw.