living with estrogen addiction can be a struggle

couldn't look you in the eye
just like an angel
your skin makes me cry
you float like a feather
in a beautiful world
i wish i was special
you're so fuckin' special
but i'm a creep
i'm a weirdo
what the hell am i doing here?
i don't belong here
i don't care if it hurts
i wanna have control
i want a perfect body
i want a perfect soul
i want you to notice
when i'm not around
you're so fuckin' special
i wish i was special
but i'm a creep

"so fuckin' beautiful, brings tears to your eyes" —my dad