>mfw I try to make a post ITT without being racist

Me waiting for my tranny gf to stop ranting about her tranny issues so I can ask her if we can open the relationship so I can have sex with real vaginas again

>add someone off a political server a few months back
>they randomly talk to me again
>chaser? probably not, not like i care
>they ask for pics, i send
>start talking abt their murder fantasies (involving me)
>mfw i have never ever been so flustered
>face extremely red, feel like i have a fever
>knees weak at a vivid description of how ill be hurt & killed

What the fuck. WHY does childhood trauma do this to me. WHY can't I just be normal & be drawn towards things that don't involve being harmed. How can I get over this?