I want my high school crush to come in to me and stand over me, and then her get on top of me and kiss, and then I take off her clothes while wrapping my hands around her body, and touching her neck and face, and then kiss her chest and neck, and grab her butt, and kiss her forever.

But I have MS and it's going to get worse. I will probably be in a wheelchair. Life is suffering and it never is good. God is just the guy he is. I'm nothing special. I wanted a lot of things but I never got them. I never got anything..............